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It's 6 AM and I'm not in bed. How odd is that? I tried to go to bed three hours ago. But I couldn't.

But I didn't get online or anything cause I didn't want to miss church today. I really really need to start going to church again.

I guess some things are bothering me. I really do not know. I feel like nothing is bothering me at all, but then I have trouble sleeping at night and I told someone that and she asked me if things were bothering me and stuff. Hmmm, I don't know how you relate them together when I don't think nothing's bothering me. I just do not know.

Anyway, my infection got better, although it's still there. So I gotta call my doctor sometime soon and ask about this stuff. I'm out of the medication and the infection's still there. I don't know what to do but it's probably cause I wore my contacts even though he told me not to. I just can't go out in public with my dorky glasses on. It's just not me.

Sigh, okay. I'm gonna give this sleep thing another chance although I have to wake up in like 2 hours anyway. Adios lovers.

I'm so bored. I ended up not going to church again this week. Well, my church, at least. Hopefully I'll get to go next week. Anyway, I was most definietly bored. I was sleeping and then Heather calls me up at 9:30. Actually, it was ringing but I was so tired that I yelled 'FIVE MORE MINUTES' and ignored it. I checked it a while ago and it was her. I checked her voicemail like 30 min ago. Haha. I'm dumb. Yes. Abby also sent me text messages so that was fun. Then I played my brother's Xbox game. Need for Speed Underground 2 or something like that. I tried to pimp out my car in the game but I couldn't, cause I ran outta money. Psh, stupid game. Anywho.

I have pictures from Abby's church, Virginia, Virginia Beach. Yay. Wingyin made a picture entry last night. However, I'm gonna update some of her pictures and some of her pictures that she didn't upload, cause I'm cool like that. So here they are, kids, and leave some NICE comments.

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That was a cool entry. You all loved it. Since I edited them and put all these cool things around it and made the picture like brighter and clearer. Hehe. So my cousin just dropped by cause him, his sister, and Heather are going to the pool and he asked if I wanted to come. I'm in one of those lazy/tired mood so I decided not to. I might go and say hey to Heafer cause I haven't seen that whore in ages. So yeah. Okay, I'm gonna listen to music and be cool. So leave comments. If you're gonna leave Anonymous comments, maybe you should TELL me who the heck you are. Yeah, I said it. Good day, kids. I love you all.

I'm watching Sweet Home Alabama right now. Well, it's on pause just so I can update this thing. =]

Hmm Virginia, was great. It wasn't as fun as I thought it would be, but it was alright. Virginia Beach was alright, I got darker, so it's not that great. It was just okay overall.

This week..was very different. I didn't know how fast time was going by, but at the same time it really wasn't. I'd wake up around 10 or 11 every morning and just read some summer reading, go to the pool, watch korean dramas. It was all the same. I also had a lot of time to think. For some reason right now, I don't really want to see other people and socialize. I don't want to go to church this Sunday. I don't know why I'm being so dumb right now, but I can't help it. I cried a lot this week too. Thinking was good, but too much of anything is bad for you. I thought too much and got upset at myself and got sad and started regretting things. I couldn't help but to cry. I was also frustrated and worried sick about someone. I called someone last Sunday, and he still hasn't called me back yet. I had a nightmare with him in it and I wanted to know if he was safe, but he still hasn't called back yet. I'm not that worried anymore though. I'm trying not to. My parents were also pissing me off. But I tried to understand. So not so much anymore. They said they can't take me and my friends to the beach next month cause they just bought another business and they have to get that started and stuff. That got me disappointed more than anything. Since my parents are all about work. Not my mom, but my dad. We never went on an actual family vacation. Although I was actually looking forward to spending time with my friends. But they said I could go on like a tour in Europe. Like one of those student tours so I'm looking into those things. I don't think I'll go. They also said I won't be getting a car. Well, at least not the car that I wanted. I really wanted the 2005 Acura TL but they decided to give me my dad's car which is a 1998 Mitsubishi Montero Sport or something like that. It's white. I hate white cars. So I might convince them to trade in that car for like an old 4Runner or something. But I don't know. Then when I get my restriction off my license, I can get a new car. Sigh. It's gonna seem like forever. I was looking forward to the car itself, not really the license.

I'm telling myself to be thankful though. Not everyone can afford cars for their kids. I'm trying not to take things for granted cause that's not good. I went to Carter Brothers today and went to the drive-thru cause my brother wanted something. Dayena was the cashier. It was weird cause she's a cool gal and I didn't know she had a job. She's the coolest. She got a perfect score on the Korean SAT or something. Smart, smart. Hehe. Anyway, it was good to see her. I haven't seen her in a while since I haven't been to my church in forever. I didn't go to Eric's party tonight. I just wasn't up for it. Abby's back. She got back last night. I thought she was coming back tonight, but I was wrong. I called her to leave her a daily voicemail and she picked up. I was scared. Haha. Anywho.

Wingyin's leaving tomorrow for Virginia again. I won't see her this weekend. I haven't seen her in 5 days now. I miss her. A lot. Hopefully I can see her when she gets back. Hmm.

This entry went weird. So I'm gonna finish Sweet Home Alabama and go to sleep. Goodnight kids. I love you all. And leave some comments cause you love me.

I'm listening to Jesse McCartney. It's a really good song. I love the melody. Maybe not his voice, but it's a good song. Anywho.

At the same time, I'm packing. Well, I've stopped packing to write this. I hate packing. I always end up packing more than what I should. But at the same time, I can't leave things out because I need a lotta things when I go somewhere. I think I'd rather have a lot than not enough. Hmm some of you might ask what I'm packing for. Well, Wingyin's family and I are going to Virginia for the weekend. Her brother, C, lives there and they're visiting him, I guess. C, Wingyin, and I are going to The Wallflowers and Anna Nalick concert tomorrow night which is kind of exciting, although I have no idea who they are. Well, I know ONE Anna Nalick song. We're also going to the beach, which is fun too! I'm pretty excited. The car ride there, I think I'll sleep, or talk to Wingyin, or watch the OC on our hot laptops, or anything that's not boring. I think I should make a Virginia playlist on my iPod. I should, but I feel too lazy to do that right now, maybe tomorrow morning.

Today was pretty fun. I watched Mr. And Mrs. Smith with Graham, Wingyin, James, Paul, and JC. I must say, Wingyin's little friends were kind of weird. Like JC. He was the weirdest of all, I think. I couldn't really concentrate on the movie cause Paul and JC were talking the whole time. Really loud. Hah. It was funny though. This stranger walked by behind us and she was like 'My name is Jenny.' I thought it was funny. I should've said, 'HI JENNY!!' really loud. That would've been awesome. But too bad I'm dumb and I couldn't think of it at the time. Hah. Well, Jenny and her friend came behind us and near us. So Paul, JC, and James went to sit with Jenny and her friend. It was weird. Strangers. Haha but I guess it's funny. =]

Then JC and Paul left. So Wingyin, Graham, James, and I went to Cold Stone and got yummy ice cream. Mmmm delish. Then I got home and ate dinner. Talked online and packed. I still have to pack. Sigh. Toiletries, I'm gonna get tomorrow because I have to use them tomorrow morning. Same thing with cell charger, and iPod charger. This is gonna be a fun trip. I'm pretty excited. Yayness.

Okay, I think I'll go finish packing now. Thanks to all of you who reads this. Well, I'm sure it's like 2 people or something, maybe not even, but oh well. Leave some comments hotties. I love you all! Mwah.

I've been having way too much fun lately. I still think it's weird that I don't have to go to school in the morning but I'm getting used to it pretty quickly.

Yesterday was just a long day. I ate lunch with Wingyin, Justin, and Laura Beth at Elizabeth's Pizza on Wendover. Then the four of us went to Target to buy a hair dye so Wingyin and I could dye our hair. Justin was gonna do it too. So we went and bought this Loreal Feria stuff. It was fun. Then Laura Beth left early and the rest of us went to Wingyin's house. Then Justin said he'll be back cause he had to get his car oil changed. Well, he never came back because he's a pansy and he was scared to dye his hair. Sigh. Well, I dyed mine first because Wingyin's a pansy too. It didn't turn out that great. The color didn't really show. So afterwards, we did Wingyin's hair. It was fun. Except it took forever cause she has so much hair. Then hers didn't come out right either. So she did it again. Then I thought about mine, and decided to do it again. So we spent 3 hours, altogether, just dying our hair. I got the biggest headache ever afterwards. Then we were on the phone with our favorite and hottest lover ever, Abby, and we made plans with her to watch the PANTS movie. (The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, for all you slow people) Then Eric came over. So we dyed his hair. I dyed his hair because yah. Then he had to wait 30 minutes so I was lying down cause of my headache. Then it was time to rinse his hair and he couldn't do it. So I had to wash his hair FOR him. Then I put the conditioner stuff on his hair. Then washed that out for him too. Sigh. He can't do anything without me. He's such a sweetheart. Hah.

Then we went to McDonald's for dinner. Then we were walking to Palladium, and we saw a RAINBOW! I've never seen a real clear rainbow like that. It was bootayful. Then we met up with Abbs and saw MOMMIE! I love mommie. She's the best. Then we watched the movie. Hahah I said SHUT UP really loud in one of the scenes. Where it's like, OH MY GOSH!! But I said, SHUT UP!!! And these girls in front of us, who are Wingyin's friends, laughed at me. It was fun though. =] And I was happy to be there with my lovers. It also made me happy that the four of us are good friends like the girls in the movie. It was fun. Then we went to Cold Stone and all that good stuff. Then came home. I'm cutting the sad details because that's just lame and I don't want to think about lame things.

So I'm sitting here listening to Alicia Keys' song from last summer, and thinking about how great last summer was. How fun it was with all my Asians. I still love my crew right now. And I'm glad that I've been sticking to Wingyin for almost like a year now. She's such an amazing person. I just love spending time with her and I'll never trade her with the world. We're going to The Wallflowers concert in Richmond, VA, next weekend. That should be really fun. Although I don't know them. Just being at a concert with my favorite friend. That just makes me happy. But really. I really miss the old days. I think I've gotten a lot more mean this year, and cold-hearted. I've been through a lot, I guess. Although I never show it. Hopefully I'll have some time to hang out with Koreans this summer. I still have Jay's present so that needs to be delivered to him. Hah. Somehow. I don't even know when I'll ever see him again. We'll see when I get my license.

I'm really excited and happy to say, that I get my license in 4 months. I also get my car in 3 months. That's just way too exciting. I might have to work for my dad this summer. He's opening a business in Winston-Salem and he needs help so I might help him out and that way, he'll be pleased to get me a car. Ahhh, school's over, it's hot outside, I get my license soon, life is good. I just miss some things and I just have more time to myself where I think a lot about things. I was so cranky last night. I was talking to Matt and I was basically just PMSing and pissing him off. I feel bad but yah.

Okay, that's good for an update. Leave lots of comments, lovers! I love you all! Mwah.

Everything means nothing, if I ain't got you

I had way too much fun this weekend. Wow. We'll start from the beginning.

Friday. It was definitely a fun day. Well, it rained but we didn't do anything at school. I distributed my End-of-Year surprises. Graham didn't get his, cause he wasn't there. Oh well, he'll get it some other time. Anywho. Meg and her little gang came to school and got pepperoni over my shirt that I wanted to wear to Leah's partay. Ugh. We found out our EOC grades. Well, biology and algebra II at least. I got 90 on my bio EOC and got a B for the course grade. 96 on my algebra II. Don't know the course grade yet though. Then Eric, Wingyin, and I came to my house for me to change. Then we got a movie and went to Blockbuster to get a movie then went to Wingyin's house to watch the movie. It was Old School but we never watched it. We were upstairs in front of her ibook watching it. It looks funny so I took a picture, but I shall add pictures some other time. Then we ate ramen noodles and went to Leah's house for the partay. It was good. A lotta kiddies running around. I was with Eric the whole time. The ladies were quite fascinated by us being homosexual. It was funny though. Then I came home then went to sleep pretty late.

Saturday. I was super duper tired. But I still wanted to see my lovers. I got up then got all ready. Met up with Lauren, Jessica, Wingyin, Eric, and Jamie at the mall. It was hot. I bought a pair of shorts from American Eagle and it's hot. Then near the end, we were bored and the girls wanted to go to Mac. Unfortunately, the homosexual from the time Abby, Wingyin, and I went to the mall for the day after thanksgiving sale. So the girls there got Eric to get make-up done. Then he was backing out, so being the stupid person that I am, I said, 'I'll do it if you do.' So I ended up getting a makeover too. Oh well, at least I got to look pretty for Abby's and Kyrie's dance recital. Anywho, then Wingyin's daddy picked us up and we dropped Lauren and Jessica off and went to Wingyin's house and had a barbeque! It was some yummy food. We were just hanging out. We had margaritas. Mmmm good stuff. Then we went to Abby's and Kyrie's recital and met MOMMIE!! I haven't seen her in forever so I was really happy. Well, I saw her on Monday when her and Abby brought me and Wingyin lunch on Monday. She's so precious. I love her. Then she gave us our tickets. Then Andrew, our hottie friend, came, with flowers. It was so cute. Then Wingyin and Eric decided to switch tickets so Wingyin could sit with Jamie and Eric wouldn't have to sit with Kyrie's mom. It was good. I sat in middle of Andrew and Eric. Andrew actually talked so that was cool. He seems like a cool guy, he's 17. Goodness. Then it started and my hotties did very well. I also saw Chiara, who's really really gross. But yeah. I called Justin during the intermission and he said he liked my surprise A LOT and that made me feel really special and happy. I love him. And there were these old ladies dancing and I thought it was sick. Crazyness. Then it was over and I was supposed to go to Cold Stone with Abby and her cool self but I went to Kyrie's house instead with the gang cause Eric was spending the night at my place. And we rented movies to watch. Assault on Precinct 13 which I can't remember much of. And Life Aquatic that I haven't seen yet. I passed out after the first one.

Sunday. Got up around 9. Woke Eric up. Took a shower and picked an outfit out. Went to Panera's for breakfast and picked Wingyin up to go to Abby's church. It was weird. I didn't see any youth there, or hotties. They were in Jamaica according to Abby. And afterwards, we went to eat greek spaghetti. I didn't eat cause I'm not a big fan of spaghetti. Then we went to Abby's house for a little while so Abby could get her things. Then we went to mine. Got my swimsuit and Scary Movie. Then went to Wingyin's house to watch it. Andrew came later and he talked more today. It was great. The movie was funny. Then we went swimming. Water was cold. But I had fun. Abby puts a lot of make-up on. Heh. Anywho, then we were just laying out in the sun. Maybe it's just me, but I think I got darker. Oh well. It's good. Then we went back to Wingyin's and hung out. I'm really tired. I got total of like, 11 hours out of 48. I feel underslept(??), but it's cool. Abby's gonna be gone for two weeks this month for Jamaica. Justin's going to Jamaica too. How fun. Those kids are gonna have fun. I'm gonna miss them.

Tomorrow's the last day of school. You will not believe how sad I am. I seriously do not want this year to end. I wish I had my license. Gah. Oh well. I'll try to have some fun. I better. I called the Cold Stone owner but she didn't answer. I'll call him some other time. That should be fun, if I do get a job there and work with Josh. Hmm, but anyways. I'm really tired, so I'm gonna go nap or something and hang out.

Thank you to everyone who have made my weekend awesome. I love hotties. Mwah.

First, name 20 people you know.

1. Wingyin
2. Graham
3. Abby
4. Justin
5. Laura Beth
6. Jessica Booker
7. Logan
8. Eric
9. Kyrie
10. Leah
11. Jamie
12. Heather
13. Ziva
14. Patrick
15. Jeremy
16. Jay
17. Daniel S
18. Joe
19. Meg
20. Josh

Then, fill this out according to the people you chose!!

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Who is 8 going out with?: Eric goes out with Kyrie.

Is 9 a boy or a girl?: Definitely a chica.

Would 11 and 2 make a cute couple?: I don't know. Would they? Plus, ex's are off-limits. It's the law of feminism, guys.

What grade is 17 in?: Gonna be in 10th.

When was the last time you talked to 12?: Last night, online. If in person, during lunch. We made fun of Beluga making fun of me. It's hilarious.

What is 6's favorite band?: I don't know -_-;

does 1 have any siblings?: A brother who rocks my socks.

Would you ever date 3?: Nope. Never. Abby and I are lovers. We're also brother and sister and we love our mommie mucho. Incest is just gross.

Would you ever date 7?: Hahahah, Logan is my lover.

Is 16 single?: Yes he is, and he's a piece of hunk. You guys need some of that. Jay's my hottie.

What's 15's last name?: Wang.

What's 5's middle name?: I KNOW THIS ONE! ELIZABETH!

What's 10's fantasy?: To grow up and not be a teenager because teenage drama is overrated.

Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?: No. Meg's a man. So is Patrick. Two men never make a good couple. =P

What school does 20 go to?: Early College.

Tell me a random fact about 11: She looked really pretty playing Roxane in Cyrano de Bergerac.

And 1: She cuts her hair at 1 AM in the morning while putting me on speakerphone. =]

Have you ever had a crush on ..16?: Psh. Duh. Jay's a hottie like I've said.

Where does 9 live?: Somewhere in High Point.

What's 4's favorite color?: I think it's blue. I don't know.

Would you makeout with 14?: Nope, I'd never make out with a guy.

Are 5 & 6 best friends?: I'd say they're good friends.

Does 7 like 20?: Hah, maybe. I don't know?

Does 8 like 19?: Nope.

How did you meet 15?: At school. We used to ride the bus together. =]

Does 10 have any pets?: Yes, a tall, but skinny dog, that scares me.

Is 12 older than you?: Yes. She's 17. I'm 16.

Have you ever given 13 a hug?: I believe so! If I haven't, I shall give her one.

Is 17 the sexiest person alive?: Hahaha YES! Daniel is definitely a hottie.

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Okay, that was pretty fun. It was so random. Anywho. So life's good right now. Yesterday was a great day. Cyrano de Bergerac was great. We had extended lunch. Finally met the hottie, Andrew. It felt like last day again. Gah, school needs to end. Heh. Then Justin took me home. It made me happy. Justin's such a sweetheart. I wrote a lot in his yearbook. As he wanted, I put my heart and soul into it. Hopefully he liked it. Anywho. I'm very sad about the fact that he's not gonna be at school today and tomorrow. I'm gonna miss him mucho. We have exams today and tomorrow, but he doesn't have any so he can skip school. -_-;; Good thing is, though, that I'll be able to spend time with Wingyin. I'm going over to her house at 9. Then we're gonna watch In Good Company, which hopefully would be sad so we can cry together, or really funny so we can laugh our heads off. Then mi madre is gonna pick us up then we'll be headed for the Civics field test. It's hot. Tomorrow I get my yearbook back. Thank goodness! I want SO many people to sign my yearbook. I'm gonna ask the sophomores. Justin still hasn't signed it. Same with Graham. My lovers didn't. It makes me sad. So I have to get them to sign it before school's out. Yay.

Wingyin and I have decided on something this summer. We're gonna stop cussing. We're gonna focus on God more and get back on track with Him. We're also going to go to church every Sunday because I've been slacking off lately. She's gonna come to my church sometimes. We're gonna go to Abby's church sometimes. And we're also going to go to Justin's church sometimes. I can't wait. I really do feel like I should get back on track with Him. It's been really bad, seeing how things are going sometimes. Last night I was really upset but I just blame myself. I guess I'm short-tempered. My dad said something and it upset me so much. Then he said he was joking after like 4 hours. Whatever. It was a threat but he said it's not. So that's a good thing. And I bought picture frames last night from Target so I can frame some pics I have. One of them, is my ALL-TIME favorite picture. The one of Abby, Wingyin, me, and Justin at Abby's play. I love that picture like whoa. So I bought a frame that says 'Friends.. through thin and thick' around it. It makes me happy. Then I bought a regular frame to frame Wingyin's and my picture. I just love that girl like whoa and you just can't understand.

Hmmm. I probably should get going and take a shower or something. So I will update this thing later. Meanwhile, you guys should COMMENT me, because that'll make me mucho happy. Heh. I love you all. Mwah.

Yesterday was the EC graduation. Congratulations to all the seniors who've graduated. It was pretty fun. There was something about it that I disliked but we won't go into that. It was really nice outside and I dressed up but I think it was a little too much. I just threw the jacket somewhere afterwards. Hah. We also got our yearbooks which made me happy. I don't look so bad so that's good. Well, that's only compared to my previous yearbooks, in which I look gross. But anywho, people signed my yearbook and they wrote nice/fun/witty things that just made me smile. Then there was that dreadful Bio test. And some EOC review in Algebra II. We have *intense* reviews in Bio next week. Ahh I love Ms. Cea. She makes me laugh.

Well, although yesterday was a really really good day. I felt down. I don't know. Yesterday really seemed like the last day of school, and I got all sad thinking about how I'm not gonna see most of them in the summer. I was especially sad because next year, I won't get to see my sophomore lovers as much. I'm gonna miss seeing them everyday. I'll especially miss Graham, Justin, and Laura Beth. They mean so much to me and I'll never change what I have with them for the world. Just thinking about next year got me really sad. Just thinking about summer. I have felt this way last year at my middle school graduation. Although I got over that pretty quickly when summer actually came. =P But I soon got pretty happy because I went to the mall to shop. I bought two shirts from Abercrombie & Fitch. One's a purple button-up shirt. And the other is white with yellow and blue stripes and it's short-sleeved. It was $40 together because it was on sale. If it wasn't, the total would've been $110, so I saved $70. That made me really happy, just to know that I saved money. Good stuff.

Then my ibook broke down last night. I was talking to Wingyin online then the screen went blank. I tried everything to get it back to our convo but it didn't work. So I shut it down and tried to restart it but it wouldn't restart. I looked in the manual in the Troubleshooting section and it told me what I should do. So I followed the directions, but it didn't get me anywhere. Good thing out of this is that I get to go to South Point later on today. I bought my ibook at the Mac store in South Point. While I'm there, I'm hoping to go shopping at Hollister so I can get me some shorts and more cheap shirts. I want to double, and even triple, my wardrobe. Although that sounds really crazy, knowing that my closet's full of clothes alerady. I don't have closet space like at all. There are some of my clothes hanging in the laundry because I can't fit them in my closet. Crazy. But I want more clothes. I need more outfits for the summer. Maybe not though, if I get a job at Cold Stone or American Eagle. Hahhaha, which reminds me. So yesterday I went to American Eagle with my ipod on. And my headphones are in-ear so it's hard for me to hear anyone or anything when i'm listening to my ipod. Then I saw the guy with a lisp so I tried to walk really fast to the back. Then he RUNS up to me and tells me that their shorts are $5 to $10 off today. With a lisp!! I wanted to laugh really hard but I felt bad. I'm not gonna run upto customers if I work there. That's just scary.

I'm extremely tired due to the fact that I went to sleep around 1:30 AM. Wingyin and I were having a good conversation over the phone. I love that girl more than anything else. =] We talked about lots of things. What's been bothering us lately. About summer. About what she should do with her hair and what I should do with mine. What we should do during the summer. Go to my pool and party then have 'The OC Party', which sounds really hot. How I should drive illegally, but how it would suck if I get caught and I can't get my license until I'm 18. How funny it was when Jessica called someone fat. How gross someone was. I just have the best time talking to her. Then she was cutting her hair at 1 AM in the morning. So I was on speakerphone and we were talking then my phone ran outta battery. So I got cut off and I put my phone on the charger and went to bed without saying goodbye. She's going to be in Virginia today and tomorrow. When I see her on Monday, it's gonna feel like I haven't seen her in forever. My weekends seem pretty empty without her. Like one weekend, I didn't see her at all and I saw her the next Monday and I felt like I haven't seen her in ages. Crazy. I love how we're so close. It's only been like what, 8 to 9 months since we've been friends? I feel like I've known her my entire life. She's the one that knows me the best and I know her pretty well. No one will ever replace what we have and no one will ever stand in between our friendship. I just love her that much. I remember beginning of this year. I used to pray a lot for a friend like the one Justin described in his 'I Want A Friend' thing. I was thinking recently and have realized that Wingyin is the answer to my prayers. She really is. Although I was actually asking for a guy friend when I was praying, Wingyin is really the answer to my prayers. But what I've also learned that I shouldn't 'rate' my friends. I have a problem with favoritism. If you guys haven't noticed that already, I don't know what you've been smoking. But I really do. And I should stop. It's not great. I feel bad for some people that I'm not close to or nice to. Mmhmm. And Justin's essay thing was very touching. I liked it a lot because that's exactly how I felt/feel. The Kelly Clarkson part made me laugh the most. I wish I could be the friend he wants so bad because that's a friend that I also want. Hmm that was totally off-topic.

But this school year ended for some of you already and it will end soon for us Early College-ers. I hope that you guys wrap it up really well and that you guys enjoy your summer. It'd be cool if we could hang out in the summer, I don't care who you are. Hahah. Well, God Bless, kids. I love you all.

Summer is JUST around the corner. I'm mucho excited. It's gonna be awesome.

Today was a pretty good day. I was kinda late for school. But yeah. Then I went to school. It was pretty fun. Finished that weird movie in world. Then in civics we did some weird thing. Lunch was alright. Biology was pretty boring. Algebra 2 wasn't that great. We just reviewed for a test tomorrow.

Now all the fun comes AFTER school. So my mom picked me and Wingyin up. Then we went to the mall. I bought a shirt and a polo shirt from American Eagle. While I was there, I talked to one of the workers and she was really nice. She told me to apply soon because they just started doing interviews. So I'm gonna get my work permit tomorrow. Then go to American Eagle to turn the application in. Hopefully I'll get the job. That'd make me really really happy. Oh yeah, and while we were at American Eagle, we ran into some people. Wingyin started freaking out because it was actually the mexicans that were hitting on her at Quaker. I started cracking up because she was scared. It was very funny. Then we walked around. I bought a new cologne. Chanel Allure Sports. It smells masculine and great. I think people will like it. Well, I like it so whatever. Then we ate. Dropped her off. Came home. I was gonna go to the pool but it said it opens on Wednesday 'cause of technical problems. It was totally open like yesterday. So weird.

Then I got home. Cleaned up my room. I actually reorganized my closet too. It's in like order. Solid shirts. Shirts. Short-sleeve shirts. T-shirts. White shirts. Long-sleeve shirts. Sweatshirts and jackets. It's pretty hot. I think I should take a picture of it. But I think everyone will tell me I have too many clothes. My closet is full. I wish I had more closet space. Anywho. It's all good.

Overall, today was a good and fun day. I just can't wait until summer. It's gonna be way too fun. It'll be lovely and peaceful. I''m gonna be productive so that's probably gonna be fun and hot. Ahh okay I'm tired. Goodbye kids. I love you.

I've been thinking way too much lately. I serious cannot believe that there are 11 more school days left. I've just been thinking about how this year went. There are lots of things I regret. For example, I wish that I've made more effort to get closer and get to know every single person at ECG. That's the main thing that I regret. I really really really wish that I was friends with everyone at school. Although I may get annoyed by some people and I dislike some people, I won't lie. But I cannot see myself outside of ECG and believe it or not, no matter how close you guys are to me, you guys mean a lot to me. I'm really gonna miss the sophomores next year. Not just Graham, Justin, and Laura Beth. I'm talking about ALL the sophomores. I love my school people. No matter how annoying you are and how nerdy you are. I don't care if some of you like Star Wars and I don't. I don't care if you're a Jew or whatever, I still love you all. I wish I could be given a second chance to start this year over. I've learned a lot this year. I've also matured a lot. Not so much in some ways. I think this summer, I'm not gonna really be socially active.

I hate people referring to me as rich boy. I'm not rich. My parents managed to spoil me well but I'm not gonna blame them for me lacking the skills to mow the lawn or do the laundry or wash the dishes. I may not be able to perform all those tasks but this summer, I'm gonna be productive. I'm almost done with my application for a job at American Eagle. I'm also applying for a job at Coldstone, and other places. I want to get a job and work for my money. I feel like this is my version of Simple Life or whatever. But I think I can handle the work. Plus, this summer, I'm gonna study my butt off. I bought summer reading books for APELA and I started reading Death Not Be Proud by John Gunther. I just read like first 20 pgs, which was a Foreword about the character. It's pretty interesting. But really, I'm actually being productive. Next year, I'm really gonna try to be nice to the freshmen. I know that I've been stupid and standoff-ish I guess to some people. But I also know that I can be way nicer if I wanted to. Actually.. I'm not sure. Wingyin is the person that I'm actually REALLY nice to. But I'm not so much nice to her either. So it might not be possible but I'll try my best.

Mmmm okay that was really long and.. I don't know. Hahah. Just what I've been thinking about lately. Anywho, I stayed after school today, and played frisbee with the sophomores. They're fun to be around. I love how the Wang brothers and Graham were trying so hard to get the frisbee everytime it came around them. I wanted to get it but I didn't want to get caught in the middle of it. So I stayed away. Haha. They made me laugh. But they're cool. They're all nice. And I managed to run into a puddle of mud again. Except I didn't fall this time. Good stuff. But it was gross. Then Logan was all like, 'It happens to me all the time, it's okay.' Haha he's such a sweetheart. And I think I embarass myself a lot in front of people. Especially the sophomores. I still remember that day when I fell on my face at the bowling alley. That was already 7 months ago. I've known these kids for at least 7 months now. Yet, I feel like I've been with them forever. I feel out of place when I'm not with Wingyin. Like I've said, I can't see myself at anywhere other than ECG. I've been ECG-fied. Yes! Mmmm okay, this entry has been weird. But hopefully you guys enjoyed reading it? Hah. I love you guys! ALL of you! I don't care how close I am to you, I love you a lot and I'll try to be more nice to you guys. =]